I walk along the shore
Crashing waves call to me
Dark and seductive
The sea offers an embrace
Reaching onto stone and sand
And I find myself
Longing both for the safety of the shore
And the quiet of the deep
Grief feels as if you have been swallowed by the sea, no longer in charge of your own fate. You feel truly alone and finding purpose becomes difficult. I did not have the ability to comprehend the depths of my emotions until the loss of my dad. Every feeling I had up until that point was shallow. That grief was like a riptide that pulled me down deeper than I had ever feared. I felt lost in it and consumed by it. Every moment of every day was overshadowed by this grief. I often found myself literally gasping for air and drowning from the loss of him.
These art pieces had Big Sur, California in mind. It is a place where stunning coastlines provide a stark contrast to ferocious waves. It feels similar to the relationship that love and grief have to one another.
Image credit: Custom artwork by the author for this Mosaic in Medicine piece.